Make It True

I dreamt of a friend last night
We were having fun
Talking
Like we always did
It seems so real
I thought it was real
But when I woke up,
I realized
It was just a dream
But I believe it will come true
Because I know my Lord hears me
And I believe my Lord will make it true
I will be waiting
The time for all of us to reunite

Love, Bulan

I am missing you

You know how much i miss Turkey..
How I will feel sad when I thought of Turkey..

It's been a week since I get back from baitullah
I miss there more than Turkey
I even cried thinking of Makkah

*breath in, breath out*
I'm not gonna cry here
Here in the KFC. Well it's lunch hour..

The feeling there..
The peace that I feel there
The luxury of time to pray there
To recite quran
The chance to perform Solat Jenazah after every Fardhu
I will never get it here
I wish..
I wish I could live there
eversince I get back
I thought of leaving my works
I don't need the world
As long as I have my life
A life to spend with my Lord
Somehow..yes..I need to earn in order to live
But I don't need the whole world
I will find my way to you
I don't need the world

Love, Bulan

P/s: Dear future me, if you feel like getting out of track,  please remember this post, so you won't fall out too far. Remember. You. Don't. Need. The. World. 

A Wish

A few months back, I felt so lost that I couldn't find my one. I left those that are coming for me and i chased those that weren't belong to me. I felt so depressed until I was hoping for this one wish. A wish that I didn't know if I could make it true. I told my mom, "Bu, I want to save money and  go for umrah". My mom was surprised with this sudden decision and asked me why. "I want to pray for my soul mate," i replied. I need to let go this burden, there's nothing more to hide from mom. Being realistic, my mom advised, 'It isn't necessarily to go there and pray. You can still pray here. Allah always hear us". She was right. But I really want to go for umrah. I will save some money, I talked to myself.

Long story make it short,
Alhamdulillah. Here I am in Makkah.
Thank you mummy.
Alhamdulillah for the fortune you gave me.
Alhamdulillah. Allah heard me.
Alhamdulillah. I know You always hear me.
Alhamdulillah. You always there for me.
Alhamdulillah. I love you more each and every single day Ya Rabbi.

Love, Bulan

P/s: This umrah wasn't just for praying sake but for the sake of Allah. Im hoping for istiqamah in every goods I have done here.