Lelaki ku

Aku butuh lelaki

Lelaki yang bisa menghangatkan ku tanpa sentuhan

Membelai ku dengan kelembutan tingkahnya

Mengubah kesedihan ku kepada kebahagiaan

Mencintai ku seperti hanya aku seorang wanita

Membimbing ku hingga mencintai Nya lebih darinya

Layakkah aku?

Harapan pada Bintang

Di kala aku mengharapkan bintang bersinar

Hujan pula yang turun

Turunnya bukan setitik tapi selebat mahunya

Membasuhi segala harapan yang penuh di dada

Habis punah hancur segala  impian

Lalu aku terduduk terdiam terpaku

Membiarkan diri kehujanan

Menanti detik ianya berhenti

Tetapi tidak lagi mengharap pada bintang.

Misunderstood

Love
nobody can really describe it verbally
i never know if that one feeling is called love
i only know it wasnt love when suddenly that one feeling is gone
then i'll regret for what i have done
regret for assuming it was love.

Semester 7

Hello new semester. time flies too fast. I feel like just a year ago I registered as a university student and now im in my final year; fourth year.  I already checked in to my room and back to home. haha. my mom feel reluctant to let me go. glad she appreciated me :) i kept giving her clue to bring back my car, but she never say yes. aww.. never mind. perhaps its for my own good. I'll tell her later if i really need it. hmm.. with everything that had happened and only a few friends left at k11, perhaps i could say 'New Sem, New Life'. 

Harapan

Seringkali aku letakkan harapan yang tinggi pada janji yang ditabur

acapkali harapan itu hancur luluh

lalu aku berhenti berharap pada janji

hanya berharap padaNya

berusaha merealisasikan impianku sendiri

hingga kini jarang aku mengharap pada manusia

tidak berharap akan ada yang datang menjengukku

tidak berharap kata kata mu akan ditunaikan

supaya aku lebih mudah untuk redha dengan ketentuanNya.

Destiny

If I could turn back time, 

I wont fall for love

I wont addicted to have someone to love

I wont give a chance to anybody

So I wont break any heart

but this is my destiny

my faith that i never regret

but teach me a lot

As time passes,

I learned why I was left

I learned to forgive him

I learned from my mistake

I will stop chasing love

but wait for it to come naturally

when the time is right.

I wont give up

Always remind myself that "a good guy is only made for a good woman" as a motivation. i wanna be good enough to have a pious husband. i wish.

p/s: ive tried (try to change myself) a few times, and i failed. but i wont give up.