It is me. It is always me.
They are all perfectly good.
I am the problem.
Thought i was ready.
But Allah knows better.
I couldn't open my heart yet.
Keep running from what is coming
And chasing after what is going.
Allah knows better.
Maybe I am not ready, not as what i thought.
Maybe it is time to get ready first.
Maybe it is time to improve myself further.
The time just hasn't come yet.
I will wait.
The time will come.
The time will come.
Love,
Bulan
A few days back,
"wanna go gokarting ? " - A
"i'd love to!" -me
A day before yesterday,
"so are you joining us to the wall climbing? " - B
"not sure yet. I'm waiting for confirmation from my friend" - me
"hey, I'm not sure if we can go for go-kart tomorrow. Let me check back" - A
"sure no problem" - me
Yesterday
"hey, so how's the plan? " - me
8.30am, still no reply from A.
"my friend still didn't confirm yet. I think I would like to join you guys" - me
"lets go!" - B
And so I joined the weekenderz. They were great, easy to click, supportive and sporting. And it was seriously fun that I should regret if I didn't join. I would love to join them some more next time. Thanks Allah for bringing me there. I love you. I know You are the best planner ever!
Love,
Bulan
P/s: with all the supportive words, I just discovered a new side of me and understand myself even more.
Life is too short for you to waste time moaning over things ; in this case, plan cancelled. Just go get up and grab what you can while you still can!
Aku rindu
Sumpah aku rindu
Saat kita bercanda beramai
Kala otak terbang tanpa sangkar
Bermadah yang tak masuk akal
Hati mana yang tak ceria bersama engkorang?
Buang masa? Leka? - Ini merehatkan jiwa namanya
Sekali sekala lari dari dunia pancaroba
Sungguh aku rindu
Tapi masa tak boleh diputar
Hidup sudah berbeza
Dan pasti bakal makin berubah
Tapi aku harap ikatan aku bersama engkorang utuh selalu
Walau ada satu dua seperti mula melonggar
Tak apa.. Aku fleksible
Aku boleh sesuaikan diri
Boleh kekal dalam circle yang sama
Love,
Bulan
I wish the world is totally in peace
So nobody would worry if
I went to the beach alone
And sit by the fire
Read my favourite novel
Or maybe do some puzzle while
Listen to the pop sounds as the sticks get burned
With the song of the waves
*take a deep breath*
And the scent of fresh breeze..
How relaxing...
Love,
Bulan
P/s: please ease my feeling
I've been thinking..
And i realized
I've think too long
Perhaps too much
So I'm gonna take a step back
To breath peacefully
And do what I always did.
What else could I do anyway?
Love,
Bulan
P/s: true when they said it's impossible for us to be just bestfriends
